What To Do When You’ve Tried Everything.

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Often I’m bemused at my ability to complain.

For in complaint we presume to know, and how can we possibly know the true order of things? Yet we whinge and moan and put all of our energy into law of attraction to make things happen, when it’s already happening.

In all the trying we fail to see our single job, the only task assigned to us that no-one else can fulfill. Our internal bliss, the only part handed down for us to manage and yet we fail. But the majestic beauty of it all is that we cannot fail. 

It’s only in our eyes that we do so, and even when we think we’ve fallen our last fall into finality, we’re still caught and held. And all that was seen becomes unseen, whilst the unseen emerges as our new world. 

The final inversion where we get to see that all we’ve ever really seen prior to the moment of pure sight, was never really there.

Our woes gone forever as the clear light of truth emerges. We’ve never had troubles, worries or complaints, as rising clarity presents, brought on not through learning or understanding, but through letting go. Our final terrifying moment of existence paves way to every wish being granted, right when we thought the opposite was occurring.

Why do we think we’ve ever known, if time and time again we see the folly of our past, yet we push and pull and still think it wise, for us to be in command.

It’s in the quiet moments I’ve asked for help from the divine, to once and for all be done of it. The worry, the complaints, the presumption of intention, for I am not the one to know. So extending forward small hands I pass it onward, and forever into the tallest order of infinity.

Graciously received, a knowing force which starts within and extends ever so grandly, outwardly forever.

Yet it is not and will never be of the outward world, and our eyes which appear to see do nothing of the sort.

With love and awakenings,






For the Brave ones

We hide from who we really are,

yet if only we were brave,

we’d discover what we really are;

is all we ever need.

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We’d answer every call for love,

whatever package was delivered,

so longing feelings could subside,

along with hate and anger and greed.

Only then the tides’ll truly turn,

gently forming something grand,

cause the power is and always was,

forever in your hand.










Lessons in a Lost Art

tarot, osho, guru, self-development, self-improvement, learn, meaningThis morning I pulled a ‘card of the day’ for myself from the Osho Zen Tarot deck, and was so amazed by the wisdom offered, that I wanted to share it with you all.

The card I received was “Receptivity” and the poetic wisdom accompanying it included the following:

“Listening is one of the basic secrets of entering the temple of god. Listening means forgetting yourself completely – only then can you really listen. When you listen attentively to someone you forget yourself completely.

If you cannot forget yourself, you never listen. If you are too self-conscious about yourself, you simply pretend that you are listening – you don’t listen. You may nod your head, you may sometimes say yes and no, but you are not listening.

When you listen you become just a passage, a passivity, a receptivity, a womb: you become feminine. And to arrive one has to become feminine. You cannot reach god as aggressive invaders, conquerors. You can reach god only, or it is better to say, god can reach you only when you are receptive, a feminine receptivity.

When you become yin, receptivity, the door is open.

Reading this passage got me wondering how often I completely forget myself when in the company of another?

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I know the experience of this, I do it when I sit before a client, however why do I reserve this experience mostly just for client sessions? What would it be like to open up so completely, forgoing any need to have the next thing to say in a conversation?

Right now is the time to open fully, glide into vulnerability and fall so deeply into yin that we forgo ourselves in sacred union with another – with any other. All other beings on this planet are worthy of us, our attentiveness and our openness.

When was the last time you let yourself be open, bare and vulnerable with another?

When was the last time you let yourself have nothing to say?

Let’s take care to open, be love and listen.

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Awaken through a change in perception

space, awakening, 11:11, awake, how to, life, wake up, helpA simple shift in perception can change everything. One moment we can be feeling low, dull and off-course and the next moment total euphoria. We create our reality by our perception of it and recently I’ve been delving deeply into the concept of our awakenings and of living an ‘awake’ life.

Last weekend I experienced a slight shift in perspective which changed everything. I was driving along the coastal road which links my friend’s house to my house and many people were out walking along with each other, or alone, or with a pet. But all of a sudden everything changed.

It was as though I seeing two versions of the same thing. One version I was in my car down on street level with everyone, and the other version I was out in the cosmos with stars between me and the earth. I could sense that it had all only been in an instant: our entire inhabitance on earth. I was seeing that only an instant ago we had all been thrown together on this rock, stuck there by an invincible thing we’d termed gravity, and we were all just going about our day pretending we know what’s going on.

It all seemed hilarious.

We were pretending it was all normal and mundane, yet we were moving about in these funny limbed containers we call bodies which (mostly) do what we tell them to do, and we were all stuck to a spinning rock floating in the universe.

We exist in this awesome, weird and powerful reality yet we drag our feet through each day moaning about this or that, caught up in the perceived seriousness of it all, thinking woe is me.

And that’s how we miss it.

space, amazing photo, wake up, awakened, awakening, help, how to, live, happyA long time ago we put our shutters down and started to sleep walk, we closed our eyes to the miracle of each moment, of everything around us and in us, and we decided that because we have defined everything and memorised terms, definitions and information that we know everything. We think we’ve got it all figured out and then we get bored.

Imagine for a moment that we were all sucked off this planet, hurtled out into space and placed down on another planet – say Jupiter.

Imagine those initial minutes when you realise you’re alive, then you look up and realise other people are there with you and they are alive as well.

Can’t you see it?

Everyone looking just as confused as you feel but incredibly grateful that they are still conscious and can move around. Then you begin to get curious. You are  amazed at everything. You inspect and marvel at yourself, you marvel at the ground beneath you, even at the tiniest grain of dirt. And as you look up, and look around your eyes are wider than they’ve ever been.

Now take that same feeling and bring it back down to earth, to your life. To right now. What if you were an energy inhabiting this body, co-exhisting with other beings inhabiting bodies too? Would you still live your life in the same way?

What would it take for you to forget that you think you know what’s what, and open to child-like curiousity?

We are still children. All of us. Whether we are 5 or 85.

Children of this marvellous universe that beckons us to dive in and explore.

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Opening to See

These are some words I wrote after a spiritual awakening experience.

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Are my eyes open when my eyes are open?

You might think this silly but

we don’t know until we do.

I didn’t know for a long long time

til then one day I did. I saw

a secret world which lay

just beneath the surface.

Colours appeared from colours,

as if hidden in plain sight,

but now awash with sparkled light

I could smell and taste and hear them.

My eyes were opened with radiant sight

as love burst through every pore,

I’d risen from my sleepy state

and life was now upon me.


Expand our consciousness

story, inspiring, life, spirit, lesson, help, how to, I want to share a short and powerful fable which offers our minds a glimpse into the potential ability to expand our consciousness and our lives. I have come to learn that we tend to live within the confines of what we are willing to believe, and more and more I am realising that what I previously believed to be true about myself and the world I live in, may not be the way it really is.

Mostly I still play this game of life by the rules in which have been handed down to me, but the cracks are forming and the walls of my perceived foundation are beginning to crumble. I am on a mission to expand and spread my wings so far that they break through the confines of those walls, and when they fall, I will be able to experience reality as it truly is: miraculous.

The Story:

There was a mighty lion, Janro, who was born in a small zoo. As she grew, she made it a point to investigate, as best she could, all of the aspects of the world around her. All of the other lions in this zoo had been born in captivity as well.

One day, another lion was added to the group, but she was captured in the wild. When she spoke of the vast savannas, the tall, spreading trees, the birds in the sky, and the other wonders she knew of, Janro and the others scoffed. “How could this be!” They would exclaim.

“We’ve had plenty of time to investigate this world. We know precisely the limits of our cages, what other kinds of animals there are, where we came from, and how we get fed. What you are telling us is preposterous! Prove it!”

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Mercury Retro-see ya later!

mercury retrograde, psychic, how to, conflict, relationships, course in miracles, namasteI’ve experienced one of the toughest Mercury Retrogrades in years. A mini tornado ripped through my insides stirring up old depressing thoughts which almost seemed believable. And in the world around me, my relationships were also swept up within a tornado of magnified energy and mini conflicts were blasting off all around me.

Everything felt hard. I started to notice conflict almost everywhere in my life, inside of myself and in my external world and relationships. And after a couple of weeks enduring life, I threw up my hands and declared I’d had enough of everyone and was going to retreat away in my bear cave.

Life felt very hard and very serious. I felt like I wasn’t being heard or I was being heard but I was being misunderstood.

However for all my years on this planet I have learnt one thing. When it seems as though it is everyone else that is crazy or frustrating or aggravating, then there is really only one place to point the finger. And that’s towards yourself.

And that’s when the relief came.

I chilled out for a moment and told myself I love you. I repeated it a few times and breathed into my heart. Then I reminded myself that no matter how real and serious this whole life thing seems, it’s actually not real at all. I had disconnected deeply from what is real. I had disconnected from my soul. (Well I probably hadn’t really, but I was no longer looking in the direction of my soul, as I was rooted in ego thinking and fear based ideas).

enlightened, namaste, reolve conflict, relationships, helpI’m always amazed that no matter how many conflicts have been ignited or turmoil that’s been created it only takes a moment to let it all fall away.

A Course in Miracles would call that The Holy Instant. Which is referring to the idea that it only takes a second to connect back into your true loving soul energy and to see that same loving soul light in all others. Basically for everything to feel whole and good again.

Yogi’s would call this Namaste, which loosely means ‘the divine light in me honours the divine light in you.‘ And through mercury retrograde I certainly wasn’t seeing the divine light in those around me, which also means I wasn’t seeing it in myself.

So let’s stop getting frustrated with other people and bring the awareness back to ourselves.

Ponder for a moment, what if each conflict in your life was created as a mirror of an inner conflict within yourself?

What would that mean if that were true?

Well all else fails and your world crumbles, there is usually nothing else left to do but to look within.

To look within and face yourself. 








A Forgiveness Prayer we can all use

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Do you get turned off by the word Prayer? Not that long ago I’d have been triggered by it or blocked it out, avoiding anything or anyone that used it. Along with the word Prayer I’d also have avoided God, Jesus, Angels and anything else that reeked of religion.

But I had no idea that I was actually the one fueling negative energy into these words. And in the process of fueling them with negative energy and blaming others, I’d given them away. I’d relinquished any ability to use these words personally as well as listening, reading or engaging with anyone else who used them.

Words are our tools and none of them should be off limits or fueled with such energy you end up being scared of them. It’s up to each of us to free ourselves and our mind, and by recognising where we are not free and what triggers us is a great place to start.

We are the ones fueling words, so anytime you wince or feel a strong reaction to a word then it might be time to shed light on it.

Welcome it back in with love.

So let’s get down to it…..The Prayer! This prayer is a powerful tool to say and repeat any time you catch yourself judging another person. Use it anytime you feel irritated or annoyed, angry or upset by someone (or if you are judging yourself too).

You are Spirit
Whole and Innocent
All is forgiven
and released. 

I am Spirit
Whole and Innocent
All is forgiven
and released. 

The prayer was written by a teacher/student of A Course in Miracles and aims to correct our belief in the illusion that another person can be anything but a loving light.

Simple and straight to the point. We don’t need to indulge the irritation or story of what is going on.

When we see another as horrible, mean, evil, annoying, or wrong we are merely seeing their fearful pain-body from the perspective of our own fearful pain-body or ego-mind.

It pays to remember that we can only see their ego-self when we are in our ego-self. Makes you feel a bit silly when you judge another for being ego-ic…if by merely judging another automatically means you are in ego! It also reminds me of the old saying: Takes one to know one. Or maybe even: You smelt it you dealt it….!! 

When we see the world and all others from our pure divine light, our eternal soul, then we see that light in all others. No matter what they are doing or saying. This can be a big concept, so don’t try to think about it too much – just let it wash over your mind and awareness. And let it be.

Use this prayer as a reminder tool to see the perfect light in others, thus propelling yourself into deep connection with your own perfect light.

Are there any words which trigger you? 

On Spiritual Awakenings and my first one

soul, awakening, kundalini, past life, past lives, hypnotherapy, wake up, spirit, connection, help, how toSpiritual Awakenings are different for everyone, but they usually have a few things in common…

They stop us in our tracks and make us wonder if or realise that there is more to life than what appears in our physical reality.

They often can’t be explained by using our logical mind.

Often involve the meeting of a spiritual being or entity, such as a guide, angel or a strong connection to your inner guidance, higher self or soul.

They can occur when you least expect it, like when you are feeling really low and desperate, or when you are feeling amazingly happy and loving.

Once you have a spiritual awakening then you usually start to have more. I have experienced quite a few and these days they are becoming more regular. However the first experience, that I can remember, of a spiritual awakening was when I had a hypnotherapy session and I went ‘back’ to a life in which I wasn’t myself. This was something I had fervently not believed in so it was hard to reconcile as the experience was going on, but the detail was so clear that I started to let go somewhat and allow whatever was going on to occur.

I knew my name – which was Amanda (and not Sharon) and I was in the woods and had just been literally dumped here by my boyfriend. I could look down and see my body which was not my body. And I had all of her memories which were not containing any details from my current life, yet I was remembering them as if they were mine. I could feel how she was feeling in that experience which really stopped me in my tracks. But while this was all strange it wasn’t the part that I would term the spiritual awakening – it was what happened afterwards that was.

It was the ‘why’. After trolling through these new memories I moved even deeper and a white light flowed down and into the top of my head. I felt as though I was now laying down (even I knew was still sitting up in a chair). Information started to flow into me too fast and comprehensive to even attempt to say anything out loud. It just poured into me.

Information about why I had just experienced the life of Amanda and how reconnecting with the experiences of her life were going to help me in this life. I was then shown other lives and downloaded their experiences into my consciousness, as if they were my own experiences. I now held memories as if I had lived many lives within my one life, and along with these memories I was imparted with the knowledge of why they were now my memories and how that would help me.

Prior to this experience I hadn’t even believed in anything more than what was on offer to me in the physical reality – what I could see and touch, and I certainly hadn’t believed in past lives or reincarnation, or even that I had a soul! Like many people who had been brought up in a religious household I had rejected it all in my teens, even boasting of being an atheist.

But after this first major spiritual experience or awakening my eyes had been opened. I was changed forever, and as much as I tried I couldn’t go back. I couldn’t deny how much this experience had helped me – and it didn’t even seem to matter what I ‘believed’. It had helped me in a major way.

It wasn’t until then that I realised that through rejecting organised religion I had also rejected discovering my own spirituality. My Soul.

What have you experienced that you can now reflect on – something that changed or shaped your life?

You, wise being of love

awakening, enlightenment, happy, how to, love, life, inspiration, inspiring, spiritual, spiritI used to think life was hard and that people were mean. I cried many times and questioned how people could be so harsh. I would hide under the covers in my bed and not want to come out again.

But now I get it. I understand why people are like that. Why we can be like that.

When a person is mean, or doesn’t like you, or is hurtful, it is okay because that is not who they really are.

That is their small self acting out of fear.

How we feel about it is up to us and in these moments of life and interaction with another person, we have a choice.

We can react to their words and actions, and morph into our small ego-self…Matching who they are being…

Or, we can stay connected to who we really are and regonise their true self – a being of love.

By seeing their higher self by remaining connected to our own highest self, we are able to see that they do not really see us because they are yet to see themselves.

And by staying connected to our true self we can help awaken others to their own inner beauty, power and love.

We are all magnificent beyond words and beyond thoughts. And no matter what we do or say this will always be true.

There is so much love to be experienced by staying connected to the truth about us all no matter what.

It is time to step out of the old layer of skin and let it fall behind us as we finally acknowledge ourselves as the wise beings of love that we truly are.

With love,

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