I’m stepping aside

I read a quote on awakening that stopped me in my tracks.

“Man is God asleep.

God is Man awake.”

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The quote is seemingly so simple yet the power emanating forth is undeniable. It’s like it contains the keys to the universe and if we only truly understood it, on a vibrational level in our being, then we would wake up instantly.

I want to understand it. I want to know it’s truth.

I feel I have some awareness that I’m asleep, and mostly due to the experiences I’ve had, while only momentarily however, of being awake. These moments were my personal experience of sudden awakening or spiritual awakening, and revealled to me just how asleep I’ve been.

And when I drop back down into walking slumber what I notice most is our inclination for conflict. We seek it out. We revel in reasons to blast our anger and hate out to the world, and often is the case that we do it unwittingly. Many people justify it’s worth because they’re directing it toward a perceived ‘evil’ person, or violent, or mean, or insert worthy insult – person. Yet we fail to see that inciting hate, even through directed anger creates more of the same, and it’s the cause that’s begging us to bring into the light.

Our internal need for persecution of another, no matter how justified the cause is perceived to be, reveals our own inner demons. It only serves to reveal our hidden guilt, our shame, our ‘evil’ thoughts. It serves to show us what we hold within ourselves. Yet usually we’re so caught up in the external direction of our anger that we miss what’s really going on.

Well I’m stepping aside. No cause, no person, no situation warrants projection of guilt, no matter how grand or horrendous. It’s time to stop joining in on the ridicule.

It’s time for love, compassion, understanding and acceptance.

And most of all, it’s time for forgiveness.

Forgiveness for all.

And not because I’m better than some and therefore have the right to forgive, but because of the true spirited meaning of forgiveness. I wish to pass forward, through vibration, the recognition that nobody is evil, that many are lost and misguided, and that all will awaken. And when we awaken, and possibly a little before, we’ll all realise our true nature and that we’re all (yes I said ALL) quite the opposite of evil indeed.

When this takes place, all will be dissolved in an instant and we’ll return to love.

We’ll be light. For that is our true essence.

We’ll laugh and our energies will merge in loving oneness, in true acknowledgement of what is, and all else will be long forgotten as it never really was.

Inner Demons

I’m a writer.

The journey to realising that and being able to write it down has been tough. And I can see I always have been – a writer that is. I have piles of journals dating back to when I was little. Always penning it down. My thoughts, my dreams, my fears. But I never counted that as writing when judgement set in.

Somewhere along the way I deemed myself not good. Not good at writing. A bad writer. Not good enough to put pen to paper, finger to key.

And in doing so I expunged the creative flame within.

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It’s been almost a year, and after a long dark night of the soul I’ve unleashed it once more. Determined to grow it to be louder and stronger than the voice within that tells me I can’t.

Oh that voice that’s always there, I can’t do it. Not enough. Not good enough. 

I’ll be laughed at. 

Thoughts and more thoughts.

LOUD THOUGHTS!

But they weren’t there when all was lost. Those imaginary people that ridicule… Even they disappeared when I gave it all away. Because I’d safe guarded myself, given up all that was dear and all that possibly could make me vulnerable.

In desperate days of disillusion there was not much left to criticise, just me, laying paralysed without an inkling of creative energy left. But safe – or so I thought.

Yet I remained. A shell of myself, but me none-the-less.

So, I surmised, if I am all that remains, then it must be up to me. Only me. For me to release it all and let the flame soar once more. Daring to be a little higher than before. Not giving a shit at those who ridicule and throw stones, real or imaginary.

The voice is still within but I choose not to listen. Or partially listen but not care. Or not care so much. Whichever is true in the moment.

So I’m gleefully back, weary from the fight yet happy in the realisation that I was worth fighting for. And that I finally realised I was worth fighting for.

 

 

 

The night I met me.

Last night in meditation I was bestowed a missing link I’d been overlooking in my healing journey to self love.

The setting was a tranquil lagoon in which I was guided to witness something significant from my recent past. As I gazed down into the water I saw myself rising upward. Yep me, appearing exactly as I do today, however I viewed myself from a different perspective. It was from the eyes of others, and I felt the urge to meet myself and hang out with myself just like you would a new friend.

Realisation after realisation poured through me and I was offered the understanding that loving yourself has an undercurrent that can often be overlooked. The missing facet being that you might love yourself but not necessarily like yourself. For example; you can love members of your family but not want to spend every living moment with them, or similarly a friend that you only enjoy seeing now and again but you love dearly.

The meeting of myself was about liking myself. And I mean really liking myself. self-love-acceptance-awakening-healing-heal-how to, relationships

It was uncharted territory where I befriended myself. I saw who I was as a friend and I liked her.

We hung out and met on so many levels – probably because she is me. But it was like meeting my ultimate soulmate; we enjoyed all the same things!

I saw us hanging out together in my house. I saw us at the beach. I saw us laughing and getting each others jokes. A lot of time passed in an enlightening and blissful meditative trance where time held no meaning, and it was as though I’d been reunitied with my long lost best friend.

And I really, really liked her!

And that was the main realisation, I’d been working on self love for some time now, but forgot about self like. I’d forgotten to like myself in each moment and remember that I want to hang out with me and I enjoy being around me.

If you’ve read this far, then it might be time to ask yourself honestly – if you like you. Do you feel the same about yourself, just like you would a best friend that you can’t see enough of, or your partner whom you adore and always want to be around?

If the answer is no, don’t despair. You’re on the path to healing because you’re beginning to understand where you stand right now. Ask the angels or your spirit guide for assistance, request that they show you how loved you really are. And then ask them to help you discover how to befriend you.

Because when it comes down to it, you’re the one you spend literally all of your time with.

With love,

Sharon

 

 

 

Heal Your Body Issues

 

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I had an interesting experience of realisation in the bath yesterday. Yes I know…The bath 🙂 I’ve put on a few kg’s recently and as I looked at my belly and legs it would have been easy to slip into old habits of abusive thoughts – so fat, gross, disgusting.

But instead I looked at all my jiggly parts and told each of them how much I loved them.  I repeated it over and over again. And as I did this, I started to see my body in a completely different light.

I saw it as strong. I saw the extra weight as a reflection of my increased trust in awakening and revealing my personal power to the world. I felt proud of my body and my strength as a woman.

Then I had a glimpse of a possible future for myself and all sisters around the globe. I saw what is viewed in societal eyes as attractive in a woman changing from slim, to bigger. I know we like to think that we’re there already, but c’mon, we’re not. There’s still so much media influence on what’s attractive and for years now – it’s been the slim and slender female figure that’s been projected as alluring. To the point that most women are disgusted by their bodies and view them as anything other than alluring.

Yet I could see it going hand in hand, with the rise of the feminine, comes the rise of women expressing their divine power to the world. It comes the total love and admiration of our bodies – by us! Wholly embracing our lustrous curves and soft centres.

And then the echo occurs. We’ve allowed this picture to be perpetuated and we’ve certainly played our part in taking that further. We don’t need to be worried about others berating our bodies because we’ve already been doing it. But I say, that’s enough! Now is the time to ride the wave of change and it starts with our own secret views of ourselves. That’s where the true change starts. That’s where your power lies.

I see a future where women want their bodies to reflect their inner strength, where they no longer want to play a submissive role in order to be accepted as female or let a man feel manly. And it’s through this avenue of powerful love that all will follow suit, but it’s up to us to lead the way.

Let’s stop getting angry at the magazines that portray unrealistic figures and start getting fed up and fired up at how we demand these unrealistic, made up ideals onto ourselves.

And we do it all the time! Walking past a window, glancing over to check your reflection, oh I’m disgusting, I’m so fat, I’m so ugly. That’s where the real atrocity lies! That we do it to ourselves! It’s not them, it’s been us for years. And I’ve had enough.

I’m embracing all the wonders of my form and I challenge you to do the same.

Enough is enough.

By Sharon Cavill

 

 

 

 

 

Inspiration for Creatures of Habit

We are creatures of habit. We think somewhere between 60,000 to 70,000 thoughts in one day, and 90% of those thoughts are exactly the same ones we had the day before. 

A quote from the most informative, powerful and inspirational book I’ve read in a long time; You Are The Palcebo by the incredible Dr Joe Dispenza. I’ll continue with the next paragraph in the book which is transformational and insightful in itself to read all the way through – even though you may feel you know where it is leading…

We get up on the same side of the bed, go through the same routine in the bathroom, comb our hair in the same way, sit in the same chair as we eat the same breakfast and hold our mug in the same hand, drive the same route to the same job, and do the same things we know how to do so well with the same people (who push the same emotional buttons) every day. And then we hurry up and go home so that we can hurry up and check our email so that we can hurry up and eat dinner so that we can hurry up and watch our favourite tv shows so that we can hurry up and brush our teeth in the same bedtime routine so that we can hurry up and go to bed at the same time so that we can hurry up and do it all over again the next day. 

Thinking the same thoughts leads us to make the same choices. Making the same choices leads us to demonstrate the same behaviours. Demonstrating the same behaviours leads us to create the same experiences. Creating the same experiences leads us to produce the same emotions.

We do this all whilst secretly hoping our lives will change. 

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Awareness is the first step. Recognise how on autopilot you are. Ask yourself; what would it take to do one thing in a different way to how I did it yesterday? Whether it be an action, behaviour or thought.

And remember it’s not just you, it’s all of us. We’re all somewhat or mostly on repeat from our previous day, and then feel unfulfilled and frustrated with life. But it’s up to each of us to hear our internal cries and respond. Your Soul is yearning to be heard and connected in with.

She wants change. She wants connection. She wants love.

It’s time for change, and in knowing that we want something different and better for ourselves, it’s important to recognise that it’s only us who can create that change for ourselves. We can be inspired by others however to change our thoughts and our lives has to come from us internally.

Make today different from yesterday. Wake up and create life instead of repeating old re-runs, which were mostly unsatisfying the first time anyway.

Wishing you all an inspirational day of connection, love and life!

Sharon

 

 

Something gone astray

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a love that is for us?

We remember what we need to do

and say and be and get.

Yet loving us seems too far fetched,

or hard or something bad.

But it isn’t til we’ve gone astray

and become desperate in our days,

that love finds our heart decayed

believed void of any light.

Yet it’s been dimmed due to neglect,

and years spent shunned in shame,

still never let your mind tell you

that it’s too late for love to show.

For it’s love within that knows

it’s been there all along.

And now it’s time to take a hand

and follow down the path,

for where this track leads you to

is bliss bursting from within.

By Sharon Cavill

 

 

 

The Gift Awaits Us.

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The gifts the Earth parades for us,

fall silently far from sight.

All that ails, she’s there to cure,

as she begs to ease the minds of many.

Yet we push and pull and complain away,

and miss the show, the majestic dance,

of wind and rain and water spirits,

each beckoning our pain away.

The over identified persona we use

to push away the hearts of those,

we declare too different to us.

And there we sit hidden within

the walls that confine and limit our mind,

preventing us from ever truly,

meeting ourselves.

By Sharon Cavill

 

Are you afraid of death?

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I know I know, we’re not supposed to talk about it. It’s scary or morbid or whatever. But I like to talk about it and I like to think about it too. And no, I don’t think I’m morbid.

I find it fascinating to imagine that one day I’ll be gone and the world will continue on. People will go about their day, going to work, falling in love, dancing, falling out of love, experiencing life. And I’ll no longer be a part of it.

And do you know why I like to imagine that? 

You might be muttering because I’m a sicko, buuuut it’s actually because it invigorates the hell out of me. It ignites my passion for life because it wakes me up to the fact that one day I’ll no longer be here, and everything else will go on just the same.

Say goodbye to self-doubt, questioning or low-confidence.

In an instant I’m fearless and I remember what I want to do and why. I remember all that is important to me and I make those phone calls to loved ones and friends that I’d been putting off. I sit and write poetry or go for a walk by the sea. I laugh louder and don’t worry about who’s looking. I become free to be me, in my most authentic form because I’ve got nothing to lose. It’s going to end up the same way anyway, so I might as well have fun with it.

But we miss out on this glorious opportunity to really see ourselves and our lives, if we amazing-art-awesome-beautiful-death-afraid-of-dying-reincarnation-what-happens-when-we-die-spirit-keep our fear of death hidden in the shadows.

Usually we’re more afraid of something because it’s been in the shadows, and we’ve never really pondered why we’re afraid. Cos really, when you look at it, how can we be afraid of ourselves dying when we won’t be around once it’s happened anyway? We’ll have passed over.

And I have a feeling the place we’re going to next is going to be a whole lot better than this one anyway, and we’ll laugh that we were all scared and afraid.

From one fearless soul to another,

Sharon

 

 

Heart Chakra Opening -a 2 minute technique

Read through the following instructions and then close your eyes to begin.

Imagine a small ball of green light, just like a marble, sitting inside your chest in the middle of your rib cage.

The green ball of light has swirls of dark coloured energy through it, and feels hardened.

There is a small opening at the top of the marble. Place your attention on the top of the marble and inhale deeply, breathing right into it through it’s opening.

As you inhale breathing into the marble, it begins to spin.

Continue breathing into it and as it spins, it starts to grow. 

With every deep inhale, the small marble grows bigger and bigger as you fill it with air.

Now as you exhale you start breathing out and releasing the darkness from the green marble. Each exhale you draw the dark patches up and out from the marble, breathing them right out of your body.

Continue breathing into it, using your breath to help it spin and expand, and with your exhale, release the darkness.

The deeper your inhale the more the green marble moves and grows, and even starts to become lighter and more vibrant.

Continue the process until the green ball feels just right to you – the right size, motion, and colour. Notice how you feel compared with when you started the process less than 2 minutes ago.

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Extra Tip:

To get more from your meditation, do this process 3 times a day.

The benefits you’ll experience can include: increased ability to remain calm, more clarity, more energy, increased motivation, more ease in relationships, feeling lighter, more happiness, feelings of joy, connectedness, and less stress.

With love and an open heart,

Sharon

 

 

After many years, I finally said I’m sorry.

Last night as I walked up my street I noticed I could feel the muscles in my legs with each step. As I paid attention I felt as though it was my body was calling out to me, and due to my calm state, I’d heard it’s call.

And what I experienced next was a sort of homecoming.

In a flash I remembered all of the years of abuse – verbal abuse – I’d spewed forth directed at my body. Years of hating it, standing in front of the mirror disgusted. Waves of negative energy poured into it, without reprieve, and from me no less.

These days the concept sounds absurd, however I did it for so long that the experiences are etched into my brain. I’ve done a lot of work on learning to accept myself, and some time after that I actually started to love myself. All of myself.

And these days I can even place my hands on my soft belly, and feel warmth and love.

And as I continued walking along the street, deeply aware of my body and our colourful past, I felt compelled to take our reconciliation further.

That’s when I started to say; I’m sorry. From the depths of my heart, I’m sorry. Over and over again.

And almost in the same breath, I heard myself saying I forgive you. Thank you. I forgive you. I love you.

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I was seeing my beautiful body for the wonderful vessel that it was. I saw my body as a wonderous creature who’d been assigned the task of housing my Spirit, to embark on this journey together.

I felt the insanity of hating on it for all of those years. 

It’s fascinating what compels us to writhe in such hate. And I’m not only referring to our ability to hate ourselves, it’s our ability to hate strangers, people, just anyone and anything can get us worked up to rage.

And we all seem to condone it. We attack haters with more hate and feel justified in doing so.

It makes me wonder, what will it take for us to respond to hate with love? 

Cos’ it seems to me that all of the hating isn’t getting us anywhere, and someone has to go first.

There is a well of love inside each of us, yet we cover it up with thick layers of hate. And any time we dip into our hate-layers, we strengthen them. It doesn’t matter where or to whom our anger is directed, we strengthen it.

Well I’m no longer strengthening mine, ever… For anyone.

It was through that beautiful experience of finally apologising for the years of abuse and being forgiven that I’ve been able to reach new depths of love and self-acceptance. It’s as though part of me was waiting for this day, and I finally showed up for it.

Do you have someone you need to say I’m sorry to?

I love you.

Sharon

“It is a radical act of love to befriend yourself.” ~ Jon Kabat-Zinn